After it all

Forced solitude
A dream shattered
Seemingly beyond repair
The light lost again
Forward brought despair
Two hearts aching
Pain bleeding forth
Coiling over the edges
Blurring all that is known

Emotions run rampant
Chaotic in their freedom
Twisting things said
Bringing nothing more
I seek a way to say
What is deep inside
hidden now by darkness
A place I cannot find

It is safe there
In that little hidden spot
Protected by its fragility
The shining moment of us
I don't want to lose it
But your voice is so far away
Blinded by the tears
streaming down my soul

I don't know how to right the wrong
caused by confusion
Words so freely given before
hide from me tonight
I know what I want to say
but it doesn't come out that way
It only makes it worse
and I'm losing all I have

I want to run away
find solace from this anguish
I want to run to you
to feel your embrace again
But coldness I have dealt you
In response to pain I was given
Such is the way, when two fires meet

Clashing of things so strong
virulent in their passion
consuming each other rapidly
until one is not one, not two, but one...
The line does not exist...but it does?
I'm lost without you
I'm lost within you
I'm lost...

Through the anger, the pain, the confusion, the hurt
through the words, the tears, the fears...
deep beneath it all, deep within me
always, as I have said, you are
You taught me a way, to say something
a way to make it known
and though you may not believe it
for you, here, I will leave it
Ik hou van jou schatje

Phoenix

Fire, once so weak...flickering...barely alive...
coming to surface, born again in a heat of rage and passion
burst forth to consume, nothing lives in agony,
that which is burned away to purity.

I gave everything I have, to one I thought deserving
You have destroyed it...without care
Sat there laughing like a king
High on your throne you looked down upon me
Acting as if you are above me

Push me into the ground if you must
let that power be yours
but you have nothing over me
You may have broken a part
Stealing away the love I gave so freely
Twisting it to your sick needs
Throwing it in my face when done

You can say it is my fault
blame me for it all
say it is nothing but me
but everyone knows the truth
You can lie to their faces
but you are more see through than the mist

Play your little games
Have fun while you can
Karma is a bitch, fool
and you'll burn in the end

Fuck you and your little ways
The lies you caught me with
You played a good game
And you think you won

I am stronger than you, and what you think you've done
Take what you were given and fuck off
Because tonight, I am more than you ever will know
I am always able to survive, it's who I am
I am the fires of rage, passion, justice
I am life, death...and yes, I am love

I am eternal, I am Phoenix