Meant

By the warm firelight
I find a new delight
Someone with words like mine
Another keeper of the rhyme
Another master of the lyrics
Bringing his own wordy tricks
A seer into my very soul
And I wonder at what toll
What will be the cost I pay
For this wondrous day?
Have I found my other half
The one to make me laugh?
To share with me my fears
while we comfort each other's tears?
I know not what the future brings
but I hope for many happy things
A silence of the internal screams
fulfillment of my dreams
And so I shall wait and see
If you are meant for me

Fool

I'm a fool
for wanting you
craving you like
an addiction
an ache deep inside
I can't hide from it
I don't want to and yet
I run, because I'm scared
because I care.
Because it is too soon
I don't want to lose
but can I ever really win?
These feelings,
I didn't ask for them
I told myself no,
not again, not now
never again
but I have no control
and now I hide from you
Showing you more of me
than others have ever seen
I am a fool
for thinking you cannot see
I will not say it,
I will deny it
I am not falling...
I am a fool.

Believe

Twisted noises of the night
stealing away my sanity
Why can't I reach you?
Where is the light?
Take me away, make me free
fill this void deep within
make me believe

I can't see, can't feel you
darkness snakes around
creeping through the shadows
making me unreal, unfeeling
stand beside me now
make me whole
break me free
make me believe

Conquer all the shadows
break all the bars
to the cage that holds me within
keep away the sorrows, the tears
of the blackest nights
Take me away, make me free
fill this void, deep within
make me believe

make me believe

Addiction

You came into my life
so suddenly, so quickly
I had no time to react
You stole my sanity
Stole my heart, stole my freedom
You have become an addiction
a craving I can never satisfy
a need that will never go away
I hate needing you like this
wanting you all the time
my addiction, my desire
the darkest fire inside me
Burning so brightly
consuming me with this
awe inspiring rage, a power
like nothing before
You've taken over me
I'm lost to myself
lost in my addiction to you
never knowing if
one day you'll leave me
vanishing forever
leaving me with an eternal
desire for you
a hunger that will
never be filled
you have become
my addiction

The Birth of Ice

I opened my eyes, and saw only darkness
I was filled with such coldness, such rage
it snaked around my warm heart
encasing it in ice as it froze it
locking it away from pain
The blissful feeling of peace and serenity
filled me as I now know, I can be hurt
no more, no longer a victim to your smile
no longer weak to your touch
you have become nothing to me
and I will remember you no more
A cynical smile touched my lips
as I felt myself become Reborn
a creature of the night
a dark soul among shadows
the Frozen among the Living
words are nothing more
than irrelevant thoughts I have no use for
solitude embraces me completely
welcoming me into its ranks
I have become Accepted among the Rejected
for I have witnessed, participated in,
the birth of Ice, the welcoming kiss of coldness
I no longer need anyone or anything
that has not been touched by the Ice
Pain no more, tears of crystal
blood solid in its entrapment between
sheets of Ice, the Reckoning, the Dawning
the embrace-lust, desire, eternal fire
I, the witness
I, the chosen
to the Birth of Ice

The death of love

I try to hate you
but I cannot
I try not to love you
but I cannot
These feelings inside
reside, prevail
consuming me
like a wildfire
You turned away from me
leaving me standing alone
and I felt pain
like never before
It ached, deep within
drowning out reality
and locking me in cold misery
I cried tonight
tears of sorrow
and felt my heart break
Raggedly, into pieces
you didn't even say goodbye
you don't even care
and now I know the true you
I saw your face
before I died
and heard your laughter
mocking me as I went
so now I'm gone
forever away from you,
facing the death of love
I slipped into the darkness

Keeper

I stand alone
a child of night
bound by light
kept to the darkness
by that which
holds me captive
embracing me into
its dark folds
like a mother
comforting a child
I am serene
safe in this
desolated, empty place
utterly alone, with no fear
bring to me the knowledge
that I must know
to do your bidding
and I will love you forever
keeper of my secrets

Master [Not suitable for all ages]

Deep inside of me
lies a darkness
I cannot deny
an evil poison
Flowing through my veins
I hurt so bad inside
One slice, one glorious slice
of the flashing knife
and the pain on the outside
overwhelms the pain on the inside
The burning afterwards
takes away all my tears
and makes me stronger
I need this so bad
the crimson blood
slowly rising from within
to slide out purifying me
the sweet release
of my inner agony
you mock me by day
and I laugh by night
although I may love you
I love cutting more
and I am never truly yours
so think you own me all you want
But my true master is
the cold unfeeling blade
as I press it into my flesh
and draw it across
feeling its biting kiss

Shadow Ride

Give me something deep inside
The darkness I cannot hide
The lies never denied
It's time for the shadow ride

You spit curses at me
The truth you cannot see
This life may never be
The journey to set your soul free

You run around lost
Your battered body tossed
One tear for this tragic loss

The path traveled dark
'til you find your mark
No one can understand
The blood on your hand

Only those that travel this way
those that never see the day
The few light has denied
truly know the shadow ride

Untitled

Who am I?
Who will I be one day?
Can you see,
can you see me inside?
Wipe away my tears
hide away all my fears
bring me love
to heal my broken heart
set me free
bring to me, my love

I can't ask
that you'll be here forever
I can't say
hate me never
all I can ask
is you let me go
give me back my heart
leave me to be alone

I need this now
this loneliness
it really is
the way I can be strong
for I fell,
I fell for you heart and soul
you took control
and now all is lost

let me be
let me be free
let me go
send me on my way
or stay here forever
leave me to be lonely
leave me now I ask
set me free
love that never
ever lasts
just leave me be
set my heart free
That's all
I can ask of you.

Special Place

There was a little girl
curled up in a corner
crying silently without tears
the new marks
already darkening her skin
she knew no love
she had no friends
a little girl
already grown up
though she was
only three
this little girl
she was so strong
fighting the stronger
she didn't fear death
only life and the next moment
she had one meal a day
and rags for clothes
but she had a special place
where she could escape
and now you see
a teenage girl
who people say is pretty
but she does not
feel this way
the pain gets in the way
and when she stares
out in the day
she's gone again
to that special place
that's only hers
and one day
you'll see a woman
all grown up
but still she'll go
to that place
where life can't
touch her
She'll remember
the hungry days
the cold, lonely days
the days without love
and she'll sigh
and go again
to her special place
where she is only happy
and a happy little girl
no longer in a corner
no longer crying without tears
no longer unloved
for this little girl
she is me
and I am in
my special place

Untitled

This is my story
no fame, no glory
bad childhood
worse nothing could
be-here in time
learning to rhyme
teach myself
with a street dirty mouth
playing the shit
hate when I get hit
touch-don't do that
share a home with a sewer rat
going hungry everyday
have no time to go play
taught to deceive, to lie
live in fear, will I die?
no time to cry
no reason why
it was me
little and dirty
no shirt, no shoes
life's a game, I always lose
what's a dollar
hear brother hollar
'nother smack
now I'm seeing black
sweet bliss
unconscious kiss
everyday
it goes this way
when will it change?
Time to rearrange
now in a place that's strange
away from my home range
people saying they love me
why they do, I cannot see
bouncing about
like that fish, the trout
without water he will drown
with him, I'm going down
hit the bottom at fifteen
took a year, took a dream
rise above
didn't push, didn't shove
Now I fly
that's my
life story
filled with my own kinda glory

S.O.D.A [Explicit]

Our boyz, they be on the other side
when we see 'em
we fill with pride
death will bring us closer
now that they've chose her
run, attack
tortured with the doom be black
ain't no place you can go
where your raunchy ass don't show
we'll annihilate
it will exhilarate
don't fuck with the clan
or in hell you'll be gettin your tan
just watch our back
our powers, these you lack
puny little pussy group
chop you up, put you in soup
only death would eat you
feel the pain when we beat you
senseless, denseless
lies catch you in their web
on the needle there is thread
we'll sew your mouth shut
now you're stuck in a rut
die bitch
while still your body will twitch
can't show
how we flow
as our powers grow
go away
that'll be the day
revenge is sweet
it's our little treat
as your last day on Earth
it's S.O.D.A's birth
spell is rich
die you bitch
then we die
we don't cry
here's our boyz
fill us with joys
revenge is done
now shines the sun