Reincarnation

Dreaming in the night
Passing thoughts of flight
A time past remembered
Awakened from its slumber

It challenges all I am
All I wish to be
Leaves me spinning endlessly
Trying to see

Something there I know
Hidden from my sight
Grounding me to earth
Denying me my flight

Struggling to break free
I wander aimlessly
Reaching for that memory
As it hides away from me

I know the day is coming
When past and present unite
Bound within no more
I again, begin my flight

The Looking Glass

Into the looking glass she goes
no longer seeing someone she knows

A stranger staring back at her
emotions prickling like a burr

She stabs away the happiness, the mad
along goes the joyful, the glad

Soon follows the fear, the sad
away all the emotions she had

She stabs yet again to take it all away
the love, the hatred, everything good, everything bad

Left behind is a shell that had been filled
with desires, dreams, wants, needs
never to be fulfilled

One final stab takes away the pain
never to hate, never to love again

She has become a perfect statue of cold
not filled with the longing of old

Bitterness, sorrow, joys washed away
standing there naked by night and by day

There is nothing in the marble girl now
some stand and wonder "how?"

She once stood in front of this glass
shattered, broken, always last

Raising her head with pride and dignity
forward she moved unshackled and free

With one final step she made her move
into the looking glass, forever removed

Flight

Sometimes the light, shines so bright
it hides all the things that just aren't right
A fading soul in a dizzying flight
Lost in the running from her plight

Her journey cold, the tears of old
ears bleeding from all the stories told
searching for someone to hold
should she dare to be so bold

It's always the same, the usual game
trying to look beyond a name
through the dredges of poverty and fame
is she truly too wild to tame?

Still every day, you'll hear her say
she's just trying to find her way
from where life has tossed her to lay
memories and dreams begin to fray

so here tonight, in the soft moonlight
she turns to face her greatest fright
to find and hold a new delight
to begin to love again she might

tonight it ends, her will it bends
she gives her love to her truest friends
for all of them to her heart attends
a shattered dream finally mends

she looks to the sky, with love in her eyes
and spreading her wings, she fills the skies
taking flight above the light
finally finding a love that is right

Storm

All I am is broken
not sure I can ever be fixed
Lost in a life I once knew
The light faded at the edges
I tremble in the cold
seeking the warmth
now denied to me
I thought I knew the way
Strongly I strode forward
Blinded by my ego
Thinking I am what I am not

I took off from all I knew
Chasing something that didn't want me
Mocked for who I am
When all was taken
when I laid there in pieces
drained of everything
I was left alone again

I'm done bleeding, done crying
I have nothing left inside to give
and no will to take it back
I want to feel angry
I want to explode with rage
but there is nothing but stillness
a barren land, devoid of even
the echos of the past
Where has that fire gone?
The Spirit that flew so freely?

You walk through, looking for what you knew
Trying to find that memory
beneath your feet lay broken shards
the only remnants
of that Spirit that prevailed
So little left...I am unrecognizable
I want to say stay...
You want me to believe
that the past could be reborn

I stand listening to echos
watching memories drift past
I reach out trying to grasp them
feeling them slip through my fingers like mist
I am fallen, sobbing, crying out
All I hear is whispers of a time that may never be again

I will travel through this barren land
An outcast among none
And I will find refuge in solace forsaken
I am shifted, changed and I will learn me
I ask of nothing, I take nothing
Call me as you will

I'll weather this storm
not as I have in the past
No, this time I will
Stand, stripped of all, taking the fury
Eyes closed I am feeling
tears of rain, wind of sorrow, thunder of pain
And begin again, not as me, but new

After it all

Forced solitude
A dream shattered
Seemingly beyond repair
The light lost again
Forward brought despair
Two hearts aching
Pain bleeding forth
Coiling over the edges
Blurring all that is known

Emotions run rampant
Chaotic in their freedom
Twisting things said
Bringing nothing more
I seek a way to say
What is deep inside
hidden now by darkness
A place I cannot find

It is safe there
In that little hidden spot
Protected by its fragility
The shining moment of us
I don't want to lose it
But your voice is so far away
Blinded by the tears
streaming down my soul

I don't know how to right the wrong
caused by confusion
Words so freely given before
hide from me tonight
I know what I want to say
but it doesn't come out that way
It only makes it worse
and I'm losing all I have

I want to run away
find solace from this anguish
I want to run to you
to feel your embrace again
But coldness I have dealt you
In response to pain I was given
Such is the way, when two fires meet

Clashing of things so strong
virulent in their passion
consuming each other rapidly
until one is not one, not two, but one...
The line does not exist...but it does?
I'm lost without you
I'm lost within you
I'm lost...

Through the anger, the pain, the confusion, the hurt
through the words, the tears, the fears...
deep beneath it all, deep within me
always, as I have said, you are
You taught me a way, to say something
a way to make it known
and though you may not believe it
for you, here, I will leave it
Ik hou van jou schatje

Phoenix

Fire, once so weak...flickering...barely alive...
coming to surface, born again in a heat of rage and passion
burst forth to consume, nothing lives in agony,
that which is burned away to purity.

I gave everything I have, to one I thought deserving
You have destroyed it...without care
Sat there laughing like a king
High on your throne you looked down upon me
Acting as if you are above me

Push me into the ground if you must
let that power be yours
but you have nothing over me
You may have broken a part
Stealing away the love I gave so freely
Twisting it to your sick needs
Throwing it in my face when done

You can say it is my fault
blame me for it all
say it is nothing but me
but everyone knows the truth
You can lie to their faces
but you are more see through than the mist

Play your little games
Have fun while you can
Karma is a bitch, fool
and you'll burn in the end

Fuck you and your little ways
The lies you caught me with
You played a good game
And you think you won

I am stronger than you, and what you think you've done
Take what you were given and fuck off
Because tonight, I am more than you ever will know
I am always able to survive, it's who I am
I am the fires of rage, passion, justice
I am life, death...and yes, I am love

I am eternal, I am Phoenix

Destiny

Millions of miles could not part
The love I feel within my heart
A test of time this is true
Until the days of me and you
Sadness fills my very life
To know you feel the strife
To hold you in my arms I would
To make you feel as you should
Through time we will fight
To be together in the light
To some, madness it could be
To us, our life, our destiny

Heart

I'm always in the crowd
Lost and confused
Looking for a way out
And there's none to be seen
The world spinning around me
While I'm trying to stay put

Above the noise comes your voice
Calling out to me
I turn and my eyes find yours
And the whole world stops
It drops away, leaving you and me
There is passion never felt before
In a single touch from you

I question if this is reality
Or a dream
I want you to be my soul
I need your light
You've made me something more
Than I could have ever been
And I don't want it to end

I'll hold on to these moments
For times when we're apart
Memories that will linger
Deep within my heart
You are my truth, my life, my soul mate
And I've lost all ways to tell you

You've stolen my sanity
But filled me with life
I was waiting for you
And now fate has driven us together
Our story forever in the stars

For my love

In my heart is a deep aching
For a touch I cannot feel
The only thing that keeps me sane
Is the voice that I can hear
It calls out to my soul
And brings awake my life
Taking me to the heavens
So I can touch the light
I can image your caresses
The taste of your kiss
I almost feel your embrace
And it brings me to my knees
A love that reaches from far away
With words whispered in the night
I dance through the day
Knowing that in the future
We may be together
Before the falling light