Storm

All I am is broken
not sure I can ever be fixed
Lost in a life I once knew
The light faded at the edges
I tremble in the cold
seeking the warmth
now denied to me
I thought I knew the way
Strongly I strode forward
Blinded by my ego
Thinking I am what I am not

I took off from all I knew
Chasing something that didn't want me
Mocked for who I am
When all was taken
when I laid there in pieces
drained of everything
I was left alone again

I'm done bleeding, done crying
I have nothing left inside to give
and no will to take it back
I want to feel angry
I want to explode with rage
but there is nothing but stillness
a barren land, devoid of even
the echos of the past
Where has that fire gone?
The Spirit that flew so freely?

You walk through, looking for what you knew
Trying to find that memory
beneath your feet lay broken shards
the only remnants
of that Spirit that prevailed
So little left...I am unrecognizable
I want to say stay...
You want me to believe
that the past could be reborn

I stand listening to echos
watching memories drift past
I reach out trying to grasp them
feeling them slip through my fingers like mist
I am fallen, sobbing, crying out
All I hear is whispers of a time that may never be again

I will travel through this barren land
An outcast among none
And I will find refuge in solace forsaken
I am shifted, changed and I will learn me
I ask of nothing, I take nothing
Call me as you will

I'll weather this storm
not as I have in the past
No, this time I will
Stand, stripped of all, taking the fury
Eyes closed I am feeling
tears of rain, wind of sorrow, thunder of pain
And begin again, not as me, but new