To let you know

I can't tell you the thoughts I have inside

I just want to run and hide

Lost inside myself

Putting memories on a shelf

I stay away because I was told

In my soul there is love I hold

I can't be there for you right now

Wandering I wonder how

We can be apart like this

I miss your touch, your kiss

I know why you stay away

But I'm longing for that day

When you return to me

Hoping that's what is meant to be

There's nothing I can do

To prove myself to you

I just want what was

Please show me because

I feel I'm losing you

Don't want it to be true

Looking for answers to my question

And I forgot to mention

That I miss you

And love you too

Hoping you don't throw that away

Please don't walk away

I want you to choose me

There's something you need to see

A life that could happen for us

While I'm still earning your trust

I leave these final words with you

It's not up to me, it's up to you

Unknown

Words whispered softly in the night

Filled with pain, with fright

Will you understand what they mean?

It might not be what it seems

Wanting to let you know, let you hear

All the thoughts I hold dear

But I'm scared inside

Holding in what I hide

Can't see through all the tears

Fighting back all the fears

Left to wander all alone

Feelings yet to be shown

Giving all that I am

Leaving life to plan

Afraid to see what lies before

Could there be less or more?

Thinking what I know to be true

Wondering if I know who

Could release me from this cage

Just more words on a page

This story had no ending yet

Will there be joy or regret?

All I can see

Is who I would be

Something

I'm not strong, not beautiful

I'm not everything everyone needs

Who am I but another promise broken?

You say you want me, need me

Leave me standing there

And I'll wait because you want

Do you realize the depth

The magnitude of what is there?

Are you as lost as I am?

I give to you everything

And hold my breath

Waiting for you to accept

You need that time

That space to find yourself

And I give it to you

I've walked that path

Felt that pain

Encased in solitude and anguish

You don't have to do it alone

Don't have to hold the world yourself

Let me be part of that

Give me a chance

To walk beside you

To show you what love is

Here and now I say the words

I love you, always will

Let yourself be healed

Just for you

Wandering for so long, time has been lost

All the paths I've wandered, the roads I've crossed

Journeys ended and new ones began

All lead me to someone who ran

The walls that I built, toiled and sweated

Destroyed by you, no choices regretted

I don't deny my heart is only yours

For my ailments, only you hold the cure

I don't cry tears of sadness for time we shared

You showed me love, loyalty, that you cared

You breathed into me life so long denied

It's joy in those tears that I cried

It now comes down to eternal time

Walk the path, stay the line

Hold the faith, keep it close

That which matters most

 Time ticking softly in my ear

So it's only me that may hear

The whispers of promise it holds

Keeping back the bitter cold

Stay as you are the words say

Just as you were the first day

To you I can be nothing but true

If you'll wait, I'll wait too

So standing here in time I wait

By this lonely finishing gate

Eyes cast to the distant line

Waiting for the passing of time

My heart it longs for yours alone

Never seeking freedom to roam

The time it awaits shall it come

Is for two to finally be one

Journey

Through day and night you ride along

the roads of life from here to nowhere

Fighting endless battles internal

trying to find the way to the place 

that you want to call home

Wandering for so long

you don't know how to stop

Afraid to find what might be there

if finally you let yourself take a break

Always moving forward, never looking back

Giving yourself grief and never slack

You aren't alone, in this journey you take

but you asked to be let go

So I stood aside to watch you ride

further away from me

Though deep inside I break

I want to run after you

To call your name, to make you hear

Tears in the dark that you'll never see

Your name from my lips as I dream

Things I want to say but keep inside

Allowing you time to make your choice

I smile and say everything's fine

Because I don't want you to know the truth

I don't want to change your mind

Don't want to change your path

Standing here is where I'll wait

I'm scared inside, afraid to know

Will time take you away

or will the road bring you back?

I whisper to you at night, to tell you

I love you, I'll wait

I may not understand but I respect

You do what you must 

To become who you want to be

Not matter the choice you make

You'll always have with you

My love, my soul, my heart

 

Internal

Empty promises thrown aside
Come along for the ride
You whisper in my ear
Words I cannot hear

Strange the truth that I believe
Even as you turn to leave
Listening time and time again
Never does it seem to end

I'm not who I thought I was
And I don't what is the cause
Feeling so lost within
I just want to give in

Still something inside continues to fight
Trying to find the path that is right
Struggling to break free
That strength hidden within me

I want to believe things will fall into place
That this isn't a meaningless race
It's said that only time will tell it all
To take the flight or take the fall

So today it all begins anew
To wait until life gives you a cue
And from there it is your play
So come what may

Just something

Words formed in write
Easily twisted by sight
You don't hear the feeling
Too much in dealing

Time is never easy
Not for you and not for me
Things said not as
They were meant to be

Hindsight is indeed twenty twenty
Would the course have changed
Had those written words
Only been rearranged?

Some are told to be locked in ice
Not feeling...would that be nice
It is not who I am inside
To be otherwise is to have lied

I know your pain, it is mine as well
Healing is something time will tell
As I close my eyes tonight
The music takes me on flight

Down roads never ventured and those well worn
Time is an absence already torn
To reclaim this life I must
In beginning to learn to trust

Every life its very own
Its own web and flow
Seeds of hope grown
To where I don't know

It will all be revealed as it should
Given time something beautiful could
Be brought to life soon
Beneath a soft night's moon

Just Be

You are my light
and I your night
You're what I seek
what is right

But still we deny
Two souls torn by the past
Afraid of the blast

When two fires meet in a rush
They can burn brighter, stronger
Or fade to ash and appear no longer

Neither of us wants the walls to fall
To give it all is to lose it all
Finally taking that step forward
Leaving that protective ward

Standing there...alone, waiting...
Breath is lost as eyes seek
Will our two souls find and meet

Look beyond the shadows of the past
Push the fear aside
Just enjoy the ride

The beginning of something amazing
Through the stars be gazing
It's all written there if you only dare to look

Release those final chains
Drop away the burdened remains
And allow this to just....be