Stand alone in the shadows
Give in to the night
Flee from the past
Hide from the light

Running so swiftly
Heart pounding loud
Life chasing quickly
Lost in the crowd

Eyes searching over
Seeking some deep need
Mind clouded, confused
Doubt being a planted seed

Fear is controlling her
Demanding she listen
Like a wilted flower
Sorrowful tears glisten

A soft voice will whisper
Fighting through the noise
I will save all within her
You only have to make the choice

The Last

Within a shattered heart
was one tiny untouched piece
One last perfect crystal shard

She held it so close, so tight
protecting it from everything
the good, the bad, the right

You stole into her lonely life
with a smile, with grace
and brought with you your knife

You saw the shard, so clean and clear
and picked it up, looking at it
taking it from the one who held it dear

She wonders if you smiled and laughed
when you broke the shard, her heart
Ripping her into many halves

A single stab was all it took
to destroy all she had
Her life crumbling as she shook

Get up you said, stand tall and proud
be glad of this thing I did
Your words echoing loud

She sat and waited for something good
some reason why
to stand as she should

Her tears cried out, dry and wasted
together she pulled herself
to stand and face it

Break her spirit, break her will
take her heart, take her life
forever survive she will

Unforeseen

Like a craving it struck hard and fast
Engulfed in his presence, I groaned
He was both pain and pleasure
Taunting me while he saved me

The cruelty of his eyes bit through me
Slicing to my core
Even as I stared hungrily at him
He was poison, I knew this, I felt it
But I drew closer anyway

He stared at me with such hatred
It both shocked and aroused me
His touch lingered on my arm
Gentle...and I realized he hated himself too
I was the problem, the solution, the complication

Neither of us liked the other
But we needed each other
Like fire needs air
We clung greedily together
Even while shoving the other away

We could not exist together, nor apart
Our hearts the same yet opposite
Freaks of nature...destined and denied
Yearning sears me still and I burn
Just as I know he is

Aberration

It came to her
Like a sigh in the night
A gentle caress - almost...imaginary
Whispering along her skin
It curled lovingly, holding her in its embrace
Separating her from all that she had known

She felt safe, comforted, complete
It was home, it was life
It gave her purpose again
Like an innocent child
It slipped into her heart
Blinding her from its true intent

It changed then, slowly, before her eyes
In horror she watched it transform
The light blotted out in darkness
Extinguished by something more vile
A feeling she denied for so long, a hidden secret
It laughed mockingly, twisting her with its eyes
The sweetness she had seen melted into a putrid mass
Clutching her sickeningly in its grasp

She gasped, fighting, struggling
Denying what she knew to be true
This aberration had come from within her
It leered and cajoled, it mocked while it defiled
Smearing the innocence with blackened crimson
Like a silent prayer she held its gaze
Pouring out love and it recoiled
A soft, slipping smile and she faded out
Reclaimed by a former life

Unsure

This is so crazy
the darkness inside
threatening to overtake me
threatening to override
I need to break free
from feeling all this pain
I have nothing left to lose
and everything to gain.
I'm so afraid to step away
from everything I know
to rid myself of these chains
and let myself live and grow
I struggle to see my own worth
In myself I cannot take pride
and so I quietly fade into shadows
back to where I hide

Collision

Twisting tendrils of confusion
filtering through my mind
holding me hostage
keeping me blind

I ran from the past
racing away from the fire
encasing myself in ice
denying the desire

With a blast of cruelty
my past lashed at me
slamming me back
into a distant dream

Two parts of me collide
Neither more right than the other
My heart aching, confused
The path left for me to discover

I try to deny what I want
Because it is not right
I cannot have both
I can't be day and night

I know the pain will come
The darkness stalks me still
The predator waiting to pounce
I already feel the chill

This time I will stand and fight
Taking what I need
Stand my ground for once
To my desires I will heed

For once I will be the hunter
I will stalk and capture
Choosing who I want
Living in rapture

Feeling the freedom
Ecstatic in this light
Set loose in the day
Wreaking havoc on the night

Lust

He slides his fingers over silken skin
I shiver, waiting for more
His lips press against mine
Demanding and bruising
Excitement courses through my body
and I bite back a groan
Our hips press together
locked in a perfect fit
My tongue slides nervously
across soft lips
My nails dig in, raking down
Breathless whispers uttered softly
Warm flesh sliding against bare skin
Whisper soft caresses fading
into frustrated growls
Low laughter floating in the air
to become a muted moan
Our bodies entwined, twisting
Teeth raking gently over tender flesh
The building tension mounts
His dominating, gentle caresses
I gasp as control is lost
Two bodies in one perfect moment
Shuddering together into completion

Confusion

Linger nearby - I need you
Run far away - I'm poison
You are intrigued, curious
You want to understand me
Figure out my secrets, my thoughts
All you need to know
is that I'm cold and cruel
You will deny this
say that I am warm and loving
but do you really know?
Do you really want to see
the deepest part of me?
The part so locked away,
so tightly controlled,
that it rages for freedom?
You'll be disappointed
ashamed of what you find
I cannot hide it forever,
the part of me that scares me
The part I love and hate
at the same time
I understand it though
it keeps me from getting too close
close enough to hurt others
I am poison - run away
I want you to hold me,
I want you to run.

Internal Struggle

The dam has broken
in the flood I now drown
Swimming for salvation
hating what I've become
Holding on so tightly
to what I think is right
knowing who I am
has ventured forth tonight
I cannot hide in shadows
when they are what I am
It's time to seek the right road
no matter where it goes
I give into the waters
breathing my last breath
no longer bound by chains
Dark and light collide
Swirling angrily around each other
fighting for domination
I am alive, switching from dark to light
Contradicting myself, struggling -
NO - Thriving. These two sides
are both me, the edges faded
so the boundries are no longer clear
I am neither dark nor light
Both reside inside, rising to the front
when the time is right

Seeking

Seeking in the darknesss
looking for the light
Running from my past
searching for what's right

Breathless I am flying
soaring through this life
done with all the crying
reborn again tonight

Awakened deep inside
feelings new are stirring
brought to me by you
the boundries now are blurring

I tell myself it's wrong
pretend that I don't care
act as if it's natural
life is so unfair

Like a predator that's stalking
the situation brings us closer
moving us towards danger
morals begin to blur

Now we dance in fire
trying to stay unburned
Passion keeps on growing
Lessons will be learned

Do we run to each other
or force ourselves apart
shall we follow life's rules
or those within our hearts?

The Burning

I stand alone, afraid
I am confused though seeing clearly
There is a craving deep inside of me
for something forbidden
I feel a secret thrill
each time I cave into my desire
not even caring that it makes the hunger grow
But I wonder, in moments of clarity
if this will save me or destroy me
Solitude has kept me captive
for far too long. I yearn to break free
Rigid walls hold my heart prisoner
walls that I built myself for safety
I'm feeling reckless, wild, and dark
I want the fire, the heat
even though I know the burn comes later
Set free I'll be uncontrollable
untamed ~ a challenge
Waiting for someone to capture me
To dominate and master me
I want to fight, biting and scratching
Until all the anger's gone
replaced with passion and lust
and I've found the one.

Possibility

The world so cold and harsh
laughs mockingly as it watches
We scurry about so intent
on finding something worth meaning
often settling for second best
Finding out too late that
what we were seeking
is still a possibility
We've become trapped
in a falsely gilded cage
We'll spend eternity
yearning for what could have been
Not knowing that it still could be
You just have to find the courage
to make the journey
To taste and see
if it's right for you
Take the first step, leave the safety
of the life you created
Answer your soul's beckoning
or spend forever wondering
what could have been

Desire

If I close my eyes
I can see you
think of you, dream of you
I can feel your touch
soft as a whisper
dancing across my skin
A lovers caress
I can imagine how it'd feel
our first embrace
the first passionate fires
lit inside both of us
Your voice softly calling my name
your teasing smile, your warmth
surrounding me, making me hot
So wild and needing
Yearning, moving towards the edge
until we both go crashing over
Satisfied, content to keep lingering
Unaware of the world passing by
This is what could be
if there was a you and me