Confusion

Linger nearby - I need you
Run far away - I'm poison
You are intrigued, curious
You want to understand me
Figure out my secrets, my thoughts
All you need to know
is that I'm cold and cruel
You will deny this
say that I am warm and loving
but do you really know?
Do you really want to see
the deepest part of me?
The part so locked away,
so tightly controlled,
that it rages for freedom?
You'll be disappointed
ashamed of what you find
I cannot hide it forever,
the part of me that scares me
The part I love and hate
at the same time
I understand it though
it keeps me from getting too close
close enough to hurt others
I am poison - run away
I want you to hold me,
I want you to run.