Lust

He slides his fingers over silken skin
I shiver, waiting for more
His lips press against mine
Demanding and bruising
Excitement courses through my body
and I bite back a groan
Our hips press together
locked in a perfect fit
My tongue slides nervously
across soft lips
My nails dig in, raking down
Breathless whispers uttered softly
Warm flesh sliding against bare skin
Whisper soft caresses fading
into frustrated growls
Low laughter floating in the air
to become a muted moan
Our bodies entwined, twisting
Teeth raking gently over tender flesh
The building tension mounts
His dominating, gentle caresses
I gasp as control is lost
Two bodies in one perfect moment
Shuddering together into completion

Confusion

Linger nearby - I need you
Run far away - I'm poison
You are intrigued, curious
You want to understand me
Figure out my secrets, my thoughts
All you need to know
is that I'm cold and cruel
You will deny this
say that I am warm and loving
but do you really know?
Do you really want to see
the deepest part of me?
The part so locked away,
so tightly controlled,
that it rages for freedom?
You'll be disappointed
ashamed of what you find
I cannot hide it forever,
the part of me that scares me
The part I love and hate
at the same time
I understand it though
it keeps me from getting too close
close enough to hurt others
I am poison - run away
I want you to hold me,
I want you to run.

Internal Struggle

The dam has broken
in the flood I now drown
Swimming for salvation
hating what I've become
Holding on so tightly
to what I think is right
knowing who I am
has ventured forth tonight
I cannot hide in shadows
when they are what I am
It's time to seek the right road
no matter where it goes
I give into the waters
breathing my last breath
no longer bound by chains
Dark and light collide
Swirling angrily around each other
fighting for domination
I am alive, switching from dark to light
Contradicting myself, struggling -
NO - Thriving. These two sides
are both me, the edges faded
so the boundries are no longer clear
I am neither dark nor light
Both reside inside, rising to the front
when the time is right

Seeking

Seeking in the darknesss
looking for the light
Running from my past
searching for what's right

Breathless I am flying
soaring through this life
done with all the crying
reborn again tonight

Awakened deep inside
feelings new are stirring
brought to me by you
the boundries now are blurring

I tell myself it's wrong
pretend that I don't care
act as if it's natural
life is so unfair

Like a predator that's stalking
the situation brings us closer
moving us towards danger
morals begin to blur

Now we dance in fire
trying to stay unburned
Passion keeps on growing
Lessons will be learned

Do we run to each other
or force ourselves apart
shall we follow life's rules
or those within our hearts?

The Burning

I stand alone, afraid
I am confused though seeing clearly
There is a craving deep inside of me
for something forbidden
I feel a secret thrill
each time I cave into my desire
not even caring that it makes the hunger grow
But I wonder, in moments of clarity
if this will save me or destroy me
Solitude has kept me captive
for far too long. I yearn to break free
Rigid walls hold my heart prisoner
walls that I built myself for safety
I'm feeling reckless, wild, and dark
I want the fire, the heat
even though I know the burn comes later
Set free I'll be uncontrollable
untamed ~ a challenge
Waiting for someone to capture me
To dominate and master me
I want to fight, biting and scratching
Until all the anger's gone
replaced with passion and lust
and I've found the one.

Possibility

The world so cold and harsh
laughs mockingly as it watches
We scurry about so intent
on finding something worth meaning
often settling for second best
Finding out too late that
what we were seeking
is still a possibility
We've become trapped
in a falsely gilded cage
We'll spend eternity
yearning for what could have been
Not knowing that it still could be
You just have to find the courage
to make the journey
To taste and see
if it's right for you
Take the first step, leave the safety
of the life you created
Answer your soul's beckoning
or spend forever wondering
what could have been

Desire

If I close my eyes
I can see you
think of you, dream of you
I can feel your touch
soft as a whisper
dancing across my skin
A lovers caress
I can imagine how it'd feel
our first embrace
the first passionate fires
lit inside both of us
Your voice softly calling my name
your teasing smile, your warmth
surrounding me, making me hot
So wild and needing
Yearning, moving towards the edge
until we both go crashing over
Satisfied, content to keep lingering
Unaware of the world passing by
This is what could be
if there was a you and me

PJ's Story

Sit down my child, pull a chair up near
and I'll tell you a story you'll want to hear
It's a tale of a lass, so bold and so true
Where she came from, none of us knew
One day she appeared as if from thin air
With a laugh so gleeful and firey red hair

Her golden eyes, they flickered and glowed
She was warm as summer and icy as snow
A rum drinking pirate, a wench through and through
She'd stomp on your foot if she saw fit to
At first she was so bouncy, loud, and rather rude
And more often than not, she'd be lewd and quite crude

But as time passed on, the days into weeks
her personality changed with many small tweaks
So subtle at first many did doubt her
that insults and mutes continued to shower
She knew though, that deep within
her patience and wisdom would surely win

Respect and friendship are what she sought the most
and it almost slipped through her fingers like a ghost
But she refused to give up and refused to give in
and found herself a clan to grow and mature in
This family, *TF*, did wonders for her alright
Accepting her the day after Christmas night

They gave her a home, friendship, and trust
to prove herself to all, she knew that she must
So she watched and learned from the best in the game
And sought out to earn herself a new name
No longer a noob, she grew to something much greater
A friend, a wife, a darn right okay player

Finally the day came, as she knew that it would
She had outgrown her Syrnian childhood.
Goodbyes were said to her family so dear
and she set out on a path, bright and clear.
To show the world what she'd learned here,
in a long, love filled, and happy year.

Her hopes were set high, she was so eager
to see how'd she'd do as a clan leader.
With a blink it was done and done right
the Society of unusual lives formed that night
With pride she looked at her own little clan
and sought out unusual players in the Syrnian land

Within days it was growing so fast
Now the only hope is that it'll last
It was built and built rather strong
A perfect fit, all the players belong
So surrounded by rum and all of her [Soul]s
now resides a happy, respected - PhoenixJewels

It Never Ends

Lead me now into the darkness
save me from myself
Your soul calls to mine
the longing never ends

I cry into the shadows
hiding from the light
this love is neverending
trandescending all of time

Lead me away from myself
the time left so short
nothing stops your beckoning
in loneliness I wait

Give me guidance from this fear
shelter me from the storm
it's too late for me now
I'm already lost in your eyes

Fate so cruelly laughs at me
holding back my salvation
I only want to know your love
please don't leave me in this life

The Longing

It weighs heavy in my heart
this knowledge that I have
that the sweet, aching longing
that lives in my soul
will never know fulfillment.
I can never be in your arms,
never know your touch,
never experience that first,
ever so sweet kiss of innocence.
We'll never share the passion,
the heat of each other, or
experience the other's embrace.
Lightning flashes between us,
powerful electrical charges
that travel from your eyes
all the way to mine.
Smiles rise so easily
Lingering, even long after
I stand all alone.
It is forbidden, this feeling
For you are another's, while I,
I am alone as Fate sees fit.
It is so cruel, so brutal-
having to look at you
and force myself to pretend;
Pretend that I don't care, that I
don't want you.
So I'll keep lying to myself
because it is the only way
I can save myself.